That name of the tip of the tongue

throughout the whole novel, he is trying to remember the name of that woman who got away... it is on the tip of my... adriana, claudia, esme, veronica, patricia... i am almost there: i will wake up at 4 am and almost certainly know that name that has a definite face: or I will be dying from the assassin's bullet, and then realize the name, and the fact that she is the one who killed me. all because i could not remember her name and i never loved her: matadora ... a killer by any other name.